Monday, February 23, 2009

0:dark:30

I've been up since 4:42 a.m.
Why?
My husband; that's why. He awakened me with a crash, bang, curse word...at 4:42 this morning. He tripped over something...what I don't know. What I *do* know is that he woke me up, knocked over and almost broke a lamp that was my mother's, then made shit loads of noise trying to get the lamp out of wherever it landed (almost breaking it again in the process), then somehow managed to chuck the lampshade and some of the hardware of the lamp onto me, I snapped at him and he snapped at me, I knew it was a lost cause to even think about trying to go back to sleep (for an hour? Why bother....) so I got out of bed...and here I am..up at 0:dark:effing:30 in the effing morning!
I hate mornings.
I especially hate early mornings.
I really hate being rudely awakened early in the morning most of all.
Needless to say, I'm expecting today to be a total shit. Husband is already acting like an asshole and not speaking to me. He went out and cleaned off the windshield at 10 til 6....we have another hour before we leave this morning.
I told him that.
I even said it very nicely.
His response?
Not even a grunt.
So, I know how my day is going to go. I hate days that are like this. I don't need the added stress.

Monday, February 16, 2009

A day off............

Having a "day off", enjoying a cuppa hot tea, hubby cleaning kitchen (GASP!!!! lol. not really..he actually is pretty good about that), playin' on the 'puter and just enjoying a relaxed morning. Going to have my hair cut later today and have a facial...I'm really looking forward to those appointments; I need a little pampering. I deserve a little pampering too.....just because I'm me.

The weekend was a bit rough....Valentine's Day....and it was a "firsty". This was the first Valentine's Day since mom's death. I hadn't remembered that she died after Valentine's last year and it hit kind of hard when Valentine's arrived. I spent a lot of time in tears this weekend. I spent a lot of time in reflection about mom, her death, all the circumstances surrounding her illness and death. And then last night, while watching television...I tripped over death again. There was a scene in the show "Burn Notice" where Michael was leaving his mother's house, his mother said some things about his leaving so soon, how she was thinking about ordering take out for them...and she had this look on her face..and this tone in her voice.................I remember that look...I remember that tone....I remember it from when mom was so sick and in the hospital and I was leaving after a much too short visit because I was so tired at the end of a day. All she wanted was for me to stay a bit and have supper with her. When I told her I was so tired, she got this look on her face...this look of resignation and understanding and sad acceptance. "Michael's" mother got that look too. Mom said: "I know baby, I know. You're so tired. Its been a long day for you and a hard day. Its ok, go on home and rest baby. I'll be ok. I understand. I love you."
Just one meal.
That's so little to ask.
And she knew...she KNEW she was dying.
And all she wanted was a few minutes more with me before she did.
I wish I had stayed.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

New Rules

For some reason, some of these just tickled the crap outta me......

I know....

I'm a sick, twisted, psycho bitch.......

Anyhoo..................




New Rule: No more gift registries. You know, it used to be just for weddings. Now it's for babies and new homes and graduations from rehab. Picking out the stuff you want and having other people buy it for you isn't gift giving, it's
white people's version of looting.

New Rule: Stop giving me that pop-up ad for classmates.com ! There's a reason you don't talk to people for 25 years. Because you don't particularly like them! Besides, I already know what the captain of the football team is doing these days --- mowing my lawn.

New Rule : Don't eat anything that's served to you out a window unless you're a seagull. People are acting all shocked that a human finger was found in a bowl of Wendy's chili. Hey, it cost less than a dollar. What did you expect it to contain? Lobster ?

New Rule: Stop saying that teenage boys who have sex with their hot, blonde teachers are permanently damaged . I have a better description for these kids: 'Lucky b@stards.'

New Rule: If you need to shave and you still collect baseball cards, you're a dope. If you're a kid, the cards are keepsakes of your idols. If you're a grown man, they're pictures of men.

New Rule: Ladies, leave your eyebrows alone. Here's how much men care about your eyebrows: Do you have two of them? Good, we're done.

New Rule: There's no such thing as flavored water. There's a whole aisle of this crap at the supermarket, water, but, without that watery taste. Sorry, but flavored water is called a soft drink. You want flavored water? Pour some scotch over ice and let it melt. That's your flavored water.

New Rule: Stop screwing with old people. Target is introducing a redesigned pill bottle that's square, with a bigger label. And the top is now the bottom. And by the time grandpa figures out how to open it, his @ss will be in the morgue. Congratulations, Target, you just solved the Social Security crisis.

New Rule: The more complicated the Starbucks order, the bigger the @sshole. If you walk into a Starbucks and order a 'decaf grandee, half-soy, half-low fat, iced vanilla, double-shot, gingerbread cappuccino, extra dry, light ice, with one Sweet-n'-Low, and One NutraSweet,' ooooh, you're a huge @sshole.

New Rule: I'm not the cashier! By the time I look up from sliding my card, entering My PIN number, pressing 'Enter,' verifying the amount, deciding, no, I don't want Cash back, and pressing 'Enter' again, the kid who is supposed to be ringing me up is standing there eating my Almond Joy.

New Rule: Just because your tattoo has Chinese characters in it doesn't make you Spiritual. It's right above the crack of your @ss. And it translates to 'beef with broccoli.' The last time you did anything spiritual, you were praying to God you weren't pregnant. You're not spiritual. You're just high.

New Rule: Competitive eating isn't a sport. It's one of the seven deadly sins. ESPN recently televised the U.S. Open of Competitive Eating, because watching those athletes at the poker table was just too damned exciting. What's next, competitive farting? Oh wait, they're already doing that. It's called 'The Howard Stern Show.'

New Rule: I don't need bigger mega M&Ms. If I'm extra hungry for M&Ms, I'll go nuts and eat two.

New Rule: If you're going to insist on making movies based on crappy old television shows, then you have to give everyone in the Cineplex a remote so we can see what's playing on the other screens. Let's remember the reason something was a television show in the first place is that the idea wasn't good
enough to be a movie.

New Rule: And this one is long overdue: No more bathroom attendants. After I zip up, some guy is offering me a towel and a mint like I just had sex with George Michael. I can' t even tell If he's supposed to be there, or just some freak with a fetish. I don't want to be on your webcam, dude. I just want to
wash my hands.

New Rule: When I ask how old your toddler is, I don't need to hear '27 months.' 'He's two' will do just fine. He's not a cheese. And I didn't really care in the first place.

New Rule: If you ever hope to be a credible adult and want a job that pays better than minimum wage, then for God's sake don't pierce or tattoo every available piece of flesh. If so, then plan your future around saying, 'Do you want fries with that?

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Good Day...Tiring...But Good

Good day today...tiring but good. The incoming weather has my fibromyalgia in high gear; I'm glad I have the new med onboard....I'd hate to think how I'd feel without it.

I've been feeling the urge to draw again.........mom's passing and the fibro had that on hold, but, with the new med I'm feeling better, have more energy, more focus and less aches.......so.........I'm wanting to work on art. I have a couple on the drawing boards in rough sketch, now if I could just pick which I want to work on the most and find some extra time in which to work....I'd be all set!
All in good time I suppose. At least I'm wanting to draw again!

Not much else happening at the moment. I've decided to continue to put off my rant. I'm still steamed about the situation and I need to cool off a bit more before I talk about it. Beyond that...nada.

Saturday, February 07, 2009

And now you know why I'm not a stripper

Name Game - This one is fun!
YOUR REAL NAME:
Birth: T***y W****n.
In school: T***y W****n-G****s
Now: LiLi LaVeau Scarbrough (changed for business purposes)

2.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:(mother and fathers middle names)
Ann Leonard

3.NASCAR NAME:(first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)
Elwood Wade

4.STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)Scalil

5.DETECTIVE NAME:(favorite color, favorite animal)
Don't have one cat??????

6.SOAP OPERA NAME:(middle name, town where you were born)
Then: Lynn Greenville
Now: LaVeau Greenville

7.SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
The don't have one Tea

8.FLY NAME:(first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)
Ligh

9.STREET NAME:(fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie)
Blueberry Cream Pie White Chunk Macadamia

10. PORN NAME: (1st pet's name, street you grew up on)
I don't remember my first pet's name....and I grew up on many different streets (we moved alot) so I'll just pick at random:
Mittens Meadow

11.YOUR GANGSTA NAME:(first 3 letters of last name plus izzle)
Scaizzle

13.YOUR IRAQI.. NAME:(2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of your last name):
Then: Rllycylis
Now: Ialaliugh

14.YOUR GOTH NAME:(black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Rue

(Oh lets do them all! lol! Black Bubba, Black Pixel (or Black Pixi), Black Bentley, Black Abbey-Rue)[hmmmmm....Black Pixi doesn't sound half bad.......]

15. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume/cologne, fav candy)

I have two (as usual...I am a Gemini you know! hahaha)

Black Amythest Turtles
Indecence Turtles

(now why could I not like a candy with a name like "Sugar Babies", "Heath", "Payday" or "Bit-O-Honey"? They sound sooo much better than "Turtles".)

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

Not exactly what I wanted

.....but it will have to do for now. I wanted to add a slideshow to my page in the sidebar, but I can't find one that works well and is easy to set up...soooooo...the one in the previous post will have to do for now.

The pics in it are some of my art work.

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

Another day...........

Up early, had to get up to see if school was in session today....it isn't....'cause...WE GOT SNOW! Not much mind you...but some; and more is supposed to be on the way today, tonight and tomorrow. I know its a pain in the butt for most people, but I love it and I'm sooooo glad my nieces got to have just ONE good snow to see and play in. I hope they get to have one good snow each year they are children and enjoy having them.

In other "news", I have a rant brewing. I won't go into it just yet because I'm still too angry and I want to be a bit calmer before I "let fly". It does, of course, deal yet again with "the ungrateful get" and their action and behaviours. More on that later.....when I'm calmer....trust me..that will be a good thing.

Mom has been on my mind ALOT of late. Well, she's always on my mind...but even more so of late. You see, we're coming up on the 1 year anniversary of her passing. She went into the hospital early January of last year and we never really got her back from that/there and then she died on April 9, 2008. Oh gods I miss her sooooooooo frickin' much! No one can understand that hole in their hearts and life, until they experience it. And no one who has experienced it can explain it to someone who has not. Its hard....its so hard.

The sun is starting to rise now....it is so beautiful on the snow...such a beautiful pinky-peach color which shades the snow to a soft sparkling lavender/white. I wish I could capture it on film or in pastels. Maybe that's what I will do with my day today......draw. It would be good to draw..I haven't done it in so long and I love it.

Sunday, February 01, 2009

GRRRRRR.............

Ok, for some reason blogger has decided I cannot respond to comments.....I don't know why....it just won't.

So Lenni:

Ahhhhhh...thank you! I'm normally a hot tea drinker..but I think coffee is called for here. As you can see, it has taken me forever to get back here....just shows how incoherent I've been.

I'll be back in a bit once I get over my frustration with this "issue".